Discover the story of the song > 333 – Against Me

The protagonist is feeling like she wants to hurt herself by falling down stairs or floating face down in a river. She also mentions studying how to harm her own lungs. She mentions Marilyn Monroe, war, and bombs as things that make her scared, but every day is still new for her to wake up. She wants all the devils that she doesn't know to come along for the ride and be close to her. She mentions seeing something called the "Renown Orders of the Night" in person and emphasizes that she doesn't want to meet it with irony or cynicism. She talks about visible changes happening right before her eyes and cycles of death and regeneration. She hopes that the person she loves will come back to her. She wants all the devils she doesn't know to come along for the ride and be close to her. She repeats this desire multiple times in the outro.