Discover the story of the song > 903 – Aban

The protagonist of the song is describing herself as part of a rebellious group that is often blamed for things they didn't do. She talks about being stopped by the police and feeling guilty and innocent at the same time. She doesn't care about the law and is often involved in fights and parties. She only goes to bed when the sun rises and the light comes through the blinds. She feels a sense of danger and risk in her life, always teetering between good and bad. The protagonist mentions that if you're in trouble, you can rely on her and her friends to help you out, even if they end up getting caught by the police. She refers to her group as being different from everyone else, on the side of the "Indians" rather than the "cowboys". The protagonist acknowledges that she does not fit society's standards of beauty and goodness, but she compares herself to diamonds, rare and valuable. She mentions hanging out with her friends in school bathrooms and being watched by others in restaurants. She talks about being like the idols of famous singers and having the faces of bandits and the blood of outlaws. She describes herself and her friends as rap psychopaths who are always ready for battle and go to sleep when others wake up, surrounded by ghosts. The song repeats the chorus, where the protagonist talks about feeling physically and mentally exhausted, with a bitter taste in her mouth. She mentions barricading herself emotionally and fogging her conscience.