Discover the story of the song > Amoeba – Clairo

The song talks about the protagonist feeling lost and trying to find meaning in life. She swims and has deep thoughts, but struggles with feeling disconnected and disingenuous in social situations. The chorus asks if she's even trying, as she hasn't even called her family, but she hopes for something different tonight. The outro talks about her feeling jealous of others who seem to have it all together and how she shows up to parties but never stays long.