Discover the story of the song > Fiveofive – 9Tails

The protagonist in these lyrics is struggling with depression and uses drugs to hide it. She is contemplating ending her life and believes that there is something wrong with her. She starves herself, abuses drugs, and doesn't sleep. She ignores her loved ones and doesn't have any energy. She takes antidepressants prescribed to her and feels numb to emotions. She is filled with anger, fear, guilt, and anxiety. She self-harms and feels alone. She longs for someone to be with her, but feels like no one is there. She smokes weed as a way to cope and wonders when it became a lifeline for her. Despite all of this, she still holds onto love and hopes to be with someone who understands her. She doesn't want to die, but the darkness in her head tells her otherwise.