Discover the story of the song > I Am Trying Very Hard To Be Here – Afi

The protagonist is questioning their own identity and the nature of their existence before their romantic partner came into their life. They feel disconnected from their surroundings and unsure of who they were before. The protagonist suggests that they can change their name but they should remain true to themselves because everything is temporary. They reflect on the past and wonder when was the last time someone cared about them without wanting anything in return. The protagonist encourages their partner to let go of their past and embrace who they are now. They feel like they are constantly moving and changing, never settled. The protagonist and their partner are compared to a car crash, emphasizing that they are not stable or permanent fixtures in each other's lives. They acknowledge that they cannot remember certain experiences or feelings, as if they have been forgotten or hidden. The song repeats the chorus, reinforcing the idea that they are not stable or permanent fixtures together.