Discover the story of the song > I Don’t Like My Mind – Mitski

The protagonist doesn't like her own thoughts and opinions about the things she has done. She copes by listening to loud music and working hard. However, on Christmas, she indulges in eating a whole cake just for herself. After eating, she gets sick and throws up, which triggers another memory to come up in her mind. This memory waits for its turn to be discussed with the protagonist. The memory may be from a few years ago, but it's still there, waiting to be addressed. The protagonist doesn't want anyone to take away the job she has of dealing with these memories on her own.