Discover the story of the song > I’m the Best at Ruining My Life – from autumn to ashes

The protagonist is struggling to get up and face the day, wanting to be left alone. He feels like he has ruined his own life and wants to communicate his feelings to his partner but doesn't know how. He's feeling frustrated and overwhelmed, wishing his partner was there to comfort him. The lyrics also mention violence and a sense of emptiness in the protagonist's life.