The protagonist is imagining what it would be like to live forever in a book made out of diamond. They want to sleep all day and be in a coffin with a giant. Their partner is knocking on the door, but they lie to them about something. They imagine themselves as a bird watching astronauts on a blue light monitor. They imagine being invited into palm trees and having a party with their enemies. They're unconscious and a plant grows in their brain. They dream of being in a mosh pit inside a casket where they're not a child. They split a line and hurt themselves to get rid of their calmness. They have memories of past lives slowly coming back. They make music that sounds like an old record skipping. They feel like they're flying really fast on bat wings. They see themselves becoming a robot and feeling happy chemicals in their brain unravel. They daydream a lot like the character George Bailey from the movie "It's a Wonderful Life". They like the feeling of excitement and adrenaline. They feel like they're on the edge of a cliff in a canyon and know that it will end badly. They hope that someone can give them advice on how to make things better. They feel like they're trapped in a game of chess and they're losing. They see themselves on a carousel going crazy. They think about bats in a majestic way and imagine them playing baseball. They paint their nails and wish they could time travel. They feel like their enemies are always trying to mess with their mind. They think about a volcano in Kilimanjaro exploding. They see a train coming that smells bad like rotten food. They think it's all a big joke.
