Discover the story of the song > Learning In Public – Allie X

The protagonist is experiencing some inner turmoil and feels disconnected from herself. She feels like she's losing control and doesn't know if she's responsible for hurting someone else. She questions why she has to learn and grow in front of others and feels uncomfortable with people watching her. She reflects on a relationship where she unintentionally made her partner unhappy and wonders if she pushed him away or if he left on his own. The protagonist feels confused and realizes that what she thought she wanted has changed. She acknowledges that this period of her life will eventually become just a memory. Despite the confusion and self-doubt, she continues to learn and grow in front of others, even though it can be uncomfortable. She repeats the phrase "doo-doo-doo" to represent the passing of time and energy. In the end, she realizes that she has changed her mind about what she thought she wanted, and she lets go of her previous desires.