The protagonist is questioning whether her romantic partner is scared of her or simply indifferent. She wonders if her partner is ashamed to show her off and if he is proud of her. The protagonist also questions if she is too strange to be more than a friend and if her partner would prefer to be free. She asks if he would forgive her if she were to cry while he is having fun and if he would pretend to be single when he is alone with another girl. The protagonist expresses her insecurities and asks for a reason to be less insecure. She wonders if her partner is angry or just under the influence of drugs. The pain she feels from her partner's actions is deep and she questions if this is the way she was born. The protagonist feels rude and has been for a long time. She speaks clearly, but wonders if she should still wait for things to get better. She asks her partner to stop giving her empty promises and to keep his hands off of her. She declares that she won't run away, even though she knows she may end up swearing that she won't be hurt anymore. The protagonist feels trapped between jealousy, regrets, and melancholy, but she needs a reason to feel less insecure. She also realizes that she may be too caught up in fantasy and far away from reality. The protagonist apologizes for not being able to believe in her partner's excuses anymore and for being unable to hear his words anymore.